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  • Oh yep. Big time. I was raised in a very Catholic household in a quite conservative community. Religion aside, I think my parents were overall pretty good, despite being quite strict, other than their insistence on having surveillance over all Internet access at all times. Knowing your parents are constantly watching fucks with your head.

    But what I’m still working through in therapy are all the myriad lessons I internalized through my conservative religious upbringing. There wasn’t any one particular thing, but that was 100% not the right environment for a trans girl who didn’t know it yet to grow up in. I barely knew trans people existed until I went to college, and I was pretty homophobic in high school. It wasn’t until I was out of grad school, living and working in another state, that I had the distance to finally do the self-reflection and therapy work to realize that I’m trans and pan and accept that about myself.

    I had a moment after my egg cracked of “oh no, I’m the kind of person everyone I grew up around hates”. Jury is still out on how my family will react when I come out to them. I haven’t said anything because I’m afraid of how they’ll respond, given that I’m the only one who is no longer Catholic.

    Anyway, I could ramble on. Short answer: yeah, my upbringing fucked me up real good, and I don’t know if I’ll ever be done working through it.