Yep, though here its a bit complicated too. Finland is quite peaceful, at least in my city, dont have too much experience about bigger cities beyond small visits. But the peace feels a little stifling. I constantly feel like I shouldnt or aren’t allowed to do anything out of the ordinary because no one wouldnt get the point anyway or wouldnt care. I dont know how realistic that feeling is, but i cant really ask about it either because how would you even do that in coherent way? Maybe in the capital there are more people who care about something, but my impression is they focus on wrong things or go about it in ineffectual ways.

Still I dont want to leave, I dont think any other country would fit me anyway and I couldnt take with me anything I care about.