Whenever I tell someone that I wish i was shorter, they are always taken a back(being masculine presenting). I am just over 6 ft, in my country, that’s a bit above average height. Its not like I am a gaint or anything but I am always aware how intimidating I look. Also, the country where I live doesn’t feel like it build for people my size. Mini-van for transportation that squish my knees, ceiling that are a bit too low for my taste, showers space that’s too small.
But also, I feel like a bumbling idiot (I suspect I have Dysprixa) and hate standing out so much. I may have Body dysmorphia. Its like how I would like to be seen and how I feel, are the exact opposite to how I seen. I feel small, soft, in a relationship, I would prefer to take on the "feminine " role. I feel nothing like a man.
Anyone else relates to this.
Don’t give up man. I’ve met who I thought were the most irritating and unlovable people who are in a happy relationship. If they can find someone to love, so can you. I believe in you.
no, I spent probably 10+ years of my life trying and failing to retain anyone’s interest, and all I got for my effort was jerked around emotionally and used for entertainment by a handful of different people. I didn’t even manage to get laid for the trouble, I’m still holding my v-card. I’ve finally come to accept in the past year or two that not everyone gets to do everything they want, and just quitting is less painful. I’m not getting lead on and fucked with, I’m not getting my hopes up for stupid shit – I’m not happy about it, but I can sit and be unhappy just fine all on my own, I don’t need some asswipe playing games with my head to do so. Whatever an honest, actual relationship looks like or would be, it can’t possibly be worth the level of bullshit I’ve already endured to try and make one happen, let alone any further bullshit I’d be put through by continuing to entertain the idea. No thank you. I just thought I’d share the main reason I’ve resented my height for most of my adult life, though there are also more practical considerations as I’ve mentioned.