I’m so scared of noticable colors that I’m thinking about trying transparent (but glossy) nail polish.
I thought about animal transformations the last days and it seems I very constantly prefered to be a female animals. But since that’s mostly about roles and humans are more flexible with roles, it probably doesn’t matter much. (And I can’t get pregnant even if I wanted to.)
Idk if this actually helps but I thought I’d offer just in case: I’m a very cishet-coded man, and I wear bright glossy colored nail polish a few times a year for sporting events. I get them painted in team colors to show my support, and as best I can tell people perceive it as being very traditionally male when they ask and I start happily babbling about sports. If you have a particular color way you want to try, I’m happy to help you find a team that matches and some talking points about them so you can try painting your nails more ostentatiously and still have a cover story.
Inter Miami (men’s soccer) and the San Diego Wave (women’s soccer) both wear a shocking pink. Angel City (women’s soccer) wear a more muted pink if that’s your style. Woso is a bit more clocky because the fandom is very queer, but being a bandwagon Miami fan because you saw Messi in this year’s World Cup is a very stereotypical cis dude behavior. I don’t mean to try to strong arm you into caring about sports, I’m just mentioning an option.
transparent nail polish is nice, also i can say that just plain black nail polish feels very fem compared to nothing at all, but gets read as pretty androgynous. i painted my nails black for like 4 months straight and nobody said a thing; within a day of adding other colors there were multiple people who brought it up (both supportive and not). in other words, black nails are ideal for feeling fem while boymoding :3
I’ll consider HRT when I go fully remote. Honestly the uncertainty of how it’ll turn out kind of scares the shit out of me, when it comes to big decisions I am a big coward :<
the laser though I literally never considered for some reason, looking up places nearby thanks for the idea!
No worries. I’m a coward as well. I started HRT 2.5 years ago and now I’m a bit worried getting laser because I suspect my facial hair does a lot of work in being able to boymode despite everything else.
I highly recommend not waiting. It’s suuuper slow physically, but it has a significant effect on mental wellbeing. It’s also something you can just try, and you have quite a while to decide if it’s right for you. Even stuff like the beginnings of breast growth will reverse 100% if you stop.
my latest cope is I dont hate boymoding enough to justify going through transition. So far its holding me together 😌
that, nightcore, depilation cream and black nailpolish you have no idea how loadbearing these are for me
I’m so scared of noticable colors that I’m thinking about trying transparent (but glossy) nail polish.
I thought about animal transformations the last days and it seems I very constantly prefered to be a female animals. But since that’s mostly about roles and humans are more flexible with roles, it probably doesn’t matter much. (And I can’t get pregnant even if I wanted to.)
Idk if this actually helps but I thought I’d offer just in case: I’m a very cishet-coded man, and I wear bright glossy colored nail polish a few times a year for sporting events. I get them painted in team colors to show my support, and as best I can tell people perceive it as being very traditionally male when they ask and I start happily babbling about sports. If you have a particular color way you want to try, I’m happy to help you find a team that matches and some talking points about them so you can try painting your nails more ostentatiously and still have a cover story.
My favorite color is shocking pink, which makes things a bit difficult, I guess. But I’m also not interested in sports at all
Inter Miami (men’s soccer) and the San Diego Wave (women’s soccer) both wear a shocking pink. Angel City (women’s soccer) wear a more muted pink if that’s your style. Woso is a bit more clocky because the fandom is very queer, but being a bandwagon Miami fan because you saw Messi in this year’s World Cup is a very stereotypical cis dude behavior. I don’t mean to try to strong arm you into caring about sports, I’m just mentioning an option.
transparent nail polish is nice, also i can say that just plain black nail polish feels very fem compared to nothing at all, but gets read as pretty androgynous. i painted my nails black for like 4 months straight and nobody said a thing; within a day of adding other colors there were multiple people who brought it up (both supportive and not). in other words, black nails are ideal for feeling fem while boymoding :3
You can always start some of the steps that are slow acting like HRT or laser if those are things you want while still boymoding.
I’ll consider HRT when I go fully remote. Honestly the uncertainty of how it’ll turn out kind of scares the shit out of me, when it comes to big decisions I am a big coward :<
the laser though I literally never considered for some reason, looking up places nearby thanks for the idea!
No worries. I’m a coward as well. I started HRT 2.5 years ago and now I’m a bit worried getting laser because I suspect my facial hair does a lot of work in being able to boymode despite everything else.
I highly recommend not waiting. It’s suuuper slow physically, but it has a significant effect on mental wellbeing. It’s also something you can just try, and you have quite a while to decide if it’s right for you. Even stuff like the beginnings of breast growth will reverse 100% if you stop.
I’m gonna be trying to change citizenship in a couple years, def not strong enough to do that while transitioning